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I've been alone, all by myself for 2 days now. I can't complain, I've a got nice big-ass house in the middle of nowhere, a nice landscape; and I love my neighbors - or lack thereof - .
I had not been alone for a while. Well, I've had plenty of me time since I came back, actually I've barely had anything else. But I had not really been alone with myself. That means dreaming, looking back, looking ahead;
And feeling a tad lonely.
I think there's some of that yeah.
Sometimes I even think it would be nice to really open the door once again instead of waiting for someone skillful enough to break in. But well, once again I don't really enjoy being robbed.
Who am I kidding? There's nothing left to take.
I am full of contradictions. I've always been. But as life has been happening, increasingly so. It's part of the game, it's something I don't dislike.
But it makes it hard for me to reach clear-cut conclusions.
After all, life's been pretty sweet since I started waiting for it to happen.
I'd like someone to share it with.
But I am unwilling to compromise, I have my temper, and I am quite a piece of work. I don't give many fucks either, and I especially refuse to invest time or anything that would jeopardize my universe.
Makes it kinda hard, doesn't it?
But all this is not etched. I mean, I could take a second look at it if someone were to be interested. And if she were worth it.
Argh, here we go again.
When I reach that point, I usually give up and make my peace with my facebook relationship status being what it is. It's hard to be satisfied with such a conclusion though.
So I'm waiting. Again.
And I'm getting nowhere fast.
I'm 23. When it comes to some things, I'm much older.
When it comes to hoping my life's gonna turn out like a Disney movie, I've been stuck at 16 for quite some time now.
A wise man once told me to never, ever catch feelings. That it was not worth it. Too painful.
This guy's a hero, so I believe him.
On the other hand, he was pretty hammered that night so, well.
I'm overthinking things because I have the luxury to be bored. I enjoy my champagne problems, guilty as charged. Yet, when I go to be(d) at night and start designing new adventures, different stories,
The one in which I'm not alone anymore is kind of an audience favorite.
I've been wrong, a lot. I've been wronged, quite a few times. I am not done being, that's for sure.
I'd just like to know if there is someone worth it out there.
Just so that I can keep on dreaming at night.
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