Self-destruct

http://blogs.dallasobserver.com/dc9/2010/11/what_it_was_like_rock_n_roll_f.php?page=all

Thinking of you is like running in the dust

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I woke up today,went out and ran.

Morning's the place where I can find fake answers;my own chemicals that makes me believe for a day.

At least til the night decides to surround my world.

Yeah,morning's a good place to run.

Outside as in my head

Tireness,sadness,weariness against hope and will.

My legs against my will

My breath against my heart

My memories facing my future

Maybe just me uselessly trying to fight myself

So I ran,I stoped,ran again,stoped again.

I didn't think running was so difficult.

I always starts too fast and end up spitting my guts

Cause you're endlessly making my strength increase and decrease;but it doesn't make any sense for my legs.

They're just painful

Footstep after footstep I heard their cry and was lost gazing how weak I am finally

How can I run to my dreams with such weak legs?

I'm just gonna die without even seeing stars appear backside the mountain

Reality's such a hard task to accept.

I still have so many things to tell you,so much I would like to show,too much I'd like you to feel.

But I lack words and courage to give you my very truth

I'm such a brat finally

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Yeah,I ran,then stoped,then ran again,and stoped again.

And at the end,I was back home;suddenly collapsing in front of the door

But I still ended up my journey running

And that makes sense for me.

Okay,my legs are just so weak to run as fast as they should

But my 18 years old will's bigger than anything else,and thanks to it

I'm gonna make it no matter what

I'm not afraid of dying for what I believe in

Finally,my will is maybe gonna find the right way to love you

And furthermore,to give it to you in no more than 2 days

Don't think I am the one you see,cause you're seeing my worst

But you still have to discover my best.

http://www.deezer.com/listen-3121037

My greatest power will not be to make my dreams come true

But to make my lies come true.

So please wait for me

Coz' I'm not gonna give up.