A is faster than 1

The new school year is upon me.
I'm adjusting to my new environment.
Well, it hardly feels new however, since I've been here many times before.

I know this subway, I know these huge towers; and, more importantly,
I know a few peways.

For the first time in 8 years, I can finally see them whenever I want. For the first time in 8 years I don't need to wait for months before coming back.
For god's sake, and that's oughta be the best;
I don't hurt when I say goodbye.

It feels much closer to a see you later than a farewell hug these days.

I love that. I love that I don't leave with pain in my stomach and questions in my head. I am relieved I don't have to worry about not seeing you again anymore.
Because now I'm right here.

It still feels kinda weird though. I have trouble shaking up the usual departure-anxiety. I have yet to realize I am not leaving tomorrow, or the day after that.
This time, I'm here to stay.
At least for longer than ever before.

Granted, I still need tickets to ride the subway. Granted, I still take the wrong one. Granted, it will take some getting used to before I can finally stop thinking about things the old way.
But for now, it just feels awesome to be caught in that.

I don't miss you anymore, because you're always here.
And that's pretty damn rad after all these years.



These are not perfect days, but they've gotta be pretty damn close.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOc0we-75iA